I've got a brand new attitude - And I'm going to wear it tonight.

"So, so what?
I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't need you

And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you tonight

I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool

So, so what?
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight"

Have you ever been burned? When I say burned, I mean placing seemingly negligible expectations(or even expectations that both parties have come to agree to) in someone and then that person does the complete opposite? Well, that has been the story of my life the past couple of months.

You would think that I would be completely content with my life right now; going to school for an awesome career that involves not only my interest, but my passion. I also have a steady job that pays decently and I have the best set of friends that anyone could ask for. However, the 'Aries' in me is constantly looking for more, so I don't know if I'll ever be content.

The above mentioned combined with how cruel a select few people have been towards me as of late is a mixture for disaster in my life. I'm not sure what really happened to general respect with a dash of consideration and compassion towards someone. Maybe I'm just surrounding myself with the wrong people? God knows I have a track record for doing that heh heh.

Well, school is going good. I'm doing well in all my classes and my professors really like me; the feeling is mutual. Work is also going great! I work with my friend's(Cody) roommate. The other servers there are pretty awesome as well. It's the most laid-back restaurant atmosphere I've ever worked in, which isn't a complaint by any stretch of the imagination lol. The money is also awesome as well. A server that works there walked with a little over $150.00 on a Thursday night after only working ~6 1/2 hours. You do the math.

My dad is also doing great, which makes me feel good as well. He has Leukemia and his doctor thinks that his prostate cancer is coming back. But, if my dad feels good when he wakes up in the morning then that's less that I have to worry about for that 24 hours. My mom is also doing fine...fiesty as ever. It's kind of scary how comparable I am to the both of my parent's personalities. OH! My dad also bought 3 horses last week :) SO STOKED ABOUT THAT! They are still colt's but I'm sure will be grown in no time at all. He has two white ones and a brown one. I haven't decided on any names yet...but I think I want to name the brown colt; my parents can have the two white ones.

Ahh... :]

I guess the point of this post was simply to let any and everyone that has burned, hurt, or left me in the dust in the past know that I'm doing just fine; I feel great and am succeeding in my life!





...Without you.



Recap of today:
Woke up hungover
Went back to sleep after water+Advil
Got back in-touch with an old friend( :] )
Ate a bowl of cereal
Still RockStar status.

Song:
Pink - So What

Song: x2
Robyn - Handle Me

Where is the love?

So today I stopped at McDonalds for a greasy treat. While eating, I noticed an elderly couple sitting diagonally from me in complete silence. They made glances at me and they were exchanged. I continued to eat when, out of nowhere, the wife(or I assume they were married) asked the husband if he was ready to go in a very malicious tone. So, I glanced and raised a brow at the lady but continued to eat and try to mind my own business. The husband was non-responsive and seemed to be suffering from a mild case of Dimentia and/or Alzheimers. After several seconds the wife demanded that the husband get up and go or else she would assist him. He remained seated and she approached him and grabbed his arm then proceeded to yank him up from his seat. The man was already frail enough, so I couldn't imagine that her pulling at him felt anything short of painful. Finally he stood and they began to walk when he immediately stopped and looked at her feet in awe. She called him "gawky" and explained that it was only her nail polish(which, I wont lie...was kind of poppin). She continued to drag him out as I watched in awe at how two people who could stand the test of time would interract the way they did.

Seeing those two reminded me of how grateful I should be that I'm alive and have someone that, so far, seems great in my life. I wish more people could just admire what they have instead of loathing over what they don't.

Song:

Coldplay - Lovers in Japan

In The End to Set Me Free

Well, I know I’m a little late on this post but it was going to get done one way or the other. This is my ‘wrapping up the summer’ post. It’s going to be a long one…but a good one at that!


So where do I start..? The end of May was nice. I had finally removed myself from an unhealthy living situation and environment and back home with my parents. It was nice to get away to the country and forgetting the rush (and drama) of the city I once called home. I met someone and started talking to them, which was a refresher. Looked like things were finally starting to look up for Jeremy :]
Shortly after June began, I started playing vigilante and started staying at my best friend’s house and got into the habit of honkey-tonkin’ again. Now, don’t get me wrong…I did it with class: Without a job and stayed drunk the majority of the time. Brent (the best friend I spoke of) and I started looking for places to live in the downtown area. Despite popular belief, we were extremely successful in our search and finally after weeks and weeks of calling, viewing and giving people the cold shoulder(even after we let them know how beautiful their property was), we finally found our crown jewel in the, well, diamond grove of Lexington. We ended up moving into a neighborhood that consisted of half-million dollar houses and we haven’t been happier since :]
Now, backtracking to what I had been saying earlier. So this guy and I had seemed to kick it off on a bad foot and didn’t speak for a week. However we decided to try it once again and had a picnic date at a local park here in Lexington. Everything seemed to be going great at this point! I was happy, content and for once thought I had found someone who wasn’t just dragging me along by a string for their viewing pleasure. Well we talked and talked for several weeks and then became officially together(which, you have no idea how happy I was about that :D). However, things took a turn for the worse about a week later. I guess it just wasn’t meant to be…we talked and inevitably I ended it. We don’t really speak anymore, which is sad because he seems like a very level-headed, collected guy, but you can’t get blood out of a turnip now can you?
So June came and went…and it was a shiteous month to say the least (well, aside from us moving into our lavish apartment).
July rolled around and we celebrated the fourth with, what else? Liquor and grilled chicken. Later in the month got a liiiiittle interesting to say the least.

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Following those events, I decided to focus on myself and myself only. I started going up to Louisville more and more to broaden my network of friends and see some old ones that I hadn’t really spent much time with lately. To say the least, it was probably the most fun I’ve had at the end of a summer than I ever have had. Lots of drinking, lots of clubbing and LOTS of socializing :] Granted, I had the help of friends to abet my fun times(Thanks Josh and Jessie :P).
And to wrap things up, I have found myself once again in the relationship scene. Although I don’t really have a great track record of guys being into me, this one seems to be promising. I look forward to spending time with him and getting to know him better. He likes to travel, which is muy bueno.

To wrap it up:
Classes are great.
Life is great.
I’m great.
Thanks for reading :] More posts to come!

Song:
Filter – Take My Picture